As the summer sun faded from the sky, I couldn’t help but think about endings. My youngest children frolicked in the pool and I thought about death. Perhaps my reading of East of Eden cast a pall over the dusk, but I thought about my dad, so long gone, and about his last summer. We had no idea it was his last summer, of course, because we were all so sure that he would outlive the doctor’s predictions (”four months to two years”).

If he’d been in the plastic pool chair next to me tonight, I thought, what would we say? Probably nothing profound. The grief over what was lost already would silence us.

I watched my children, soaked in the moment and wanted to cry. The moment couldn’t last. Even now, summer flees and my baby girl has lost two baby teeth. On the way home, Zachary quizzed her, checking to see if she believes in the Tooth Fairy, Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, and Cupid. (Cupid?) He scoffed at his friend who believes in all the mythical childhood characters–and I said, “Don’t spoil it for him.” And he said, “I won’t.”

I thought how my dad’s life never intersected my children’s lives. How sad that they never met. He died four years before my oldest children were born.

The vivid sense of the momentary nature of life reminds me that all this–the endless laundry, the Shasta daisies smiling in the corner of the yard, water droplets dripping from my tan children–all of it will be gone. I think of my grandmother, lying in a bed in the center of my cousin’s family room, clinging to life, barely, on her 102nd birthday–the challenges of raising six children during the Depression, the delight of grandchildren and great-grandchildren, the sorrow of watching her husband of 62 years die from the ravages of bone cancer–all of that burned away like fog on a summer day. Momentary troubles, momentary joy.

I know I am mortal. I don’t mind getting old, except for the age spots on my hands, the hairs sprouting on my chin and the touchiness of my lower back, but I don’t want to die. I want to gather my life into my arms, greedy for more, and refuse to loosen my grip.

Monday: Who knows. I worked six hours at home, then took the kids to the pool. Glorious weather.

Tuesday: My four children, my mother, my nephew and I ventured to Mt. Rainier for the day. I thrilled the children by providing a picnic full of processed foods, including those cans of cheese and fruit roll-ups (which contain no fruit, as far as I know). The snow fell so deeply last winter that the trails were still under four feet of packed snow, so we attempted a hike, but turned back after much slipping and sliding. The children delighted in the steams of melted snow rushing along the paths and in the weirdness of throwing snowballs in July. [I would insert a picture, but my blog is uncooperative.]

Wednesday: Our town shut off the electricity at 8:00 a.m. . . . a planned outage scheduled to last twelve hours. We knew in advance, so I planned another outing: this time to Wild Waves, our local water-park. We arrived at 10:30 a.m. and left at 6:20 p.m., and I was nearly dead from a fun overdose. Too much sun, too much noise, too many people, too much. But my daughter had a fantastic time, especially compared to last year when she was too frightened to go on any kid-sized waterslides. This year, she slid and swam and splashed. Sometimes, I even participated, floating around in an tube and jumping waves in the wave pool.

My head ached by the time we left, but my daughter has asked every day since to go back. And we might: in a week because–wouldn’t you know–I found a coupon on last week’s Sunday paper for $15 off each ($35!) ticket. If only I’d had time to read the Sunday paper a week ago, I would have been able to use that coupon and not felt compelled to go back again. (Oh, the kids loved it, except for one of my 15-year olds who chose instead to stay home in a house without electricity–he and his friend down the street played their guitars and walked to 7-11 for snacks.)

Thursday: Worked for eleven hours.

Friday: Worked for nine hours. Hey, this was my anniversary, twenty-one years! No time to celebrate!

Saturday: Worked three hours, then ran errands (without kids, glory be!). My husband of twenty-one years and I went out to dinner at a lovely waterfront restaurant that was so noisy we had to shout to communicate and the service was slow, but we forgave these faults because we have enjoyed eating at this particular restaurant for many years. And the food was delicious.

Sunday: We skipped church. So many activities took place in Seattle and Tacoma today that we feared traffic would be exceptionally bad. (Which is saying something. Seattle’s traffic is notorious.) I just heard on the news that in addition to the Bite of Seattle, there was also a parade in the International District, complete with a Chinese dragon and a big Native American celebration in Discovery Park. And down near Tacoma, a big air show. (All day long, I’d hear a roar in the sky and look up to see planes flying in formation or curving around the sky in a white smoky circle.)

I did housework. I ran a few errands. I ironed.

And now another week begins. At least my husband has enough pants to wear to work and a bounty of socks in his dresser.

Today we attended Mars Hill for the second time.  The kids are still quite resistant, but this time, we bribed them with lunch afterward at Dick’s Drive-In, a famous Seattle fast-food place where they make burgers, fries (from real potatoes, as you watch) and old-fashioned milk shakes.  Aside from a little difficulty with directions  (we will not go into that), the day was a success.

For the record, our teenagers will still be attending youth group locally.  And our children went to VBS at our (former) church last week.  Mars Hill may very well be our “interim” church as driving an hour each Sunday morning may get to be too much, but you never know.  Meanwhile, I want to make our drive to Seattle each Sunday worthwhile and so, next week, I would like to drag the kids to the Woodland Park Zoo.

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My daughter and I spent the afternoon at my mother’s house, sitting on her front porch.  Grace and her cousin picked blueberries from the newly discovered bush while my mother and I chatted.  We’d had such perfect weather and the view from her porch of the Puget Sound is so lovely.  My mother has a vast bounty of junk food, so the kids ate Oreos, jelly-beans, Pringles snack-sticks and washed it all down with cans of lemonade.

And then, I took Grace and her cousin to swim.  The teenagers and my 10-year old stayed home, playing video games all afternoon.  They have no idea that they just squandered a perfect, beautiful summer day that they will never get back.  When you’re a kid, the string of sunny blue days seem infinite–but I know better.  I know that we will never get this perfect summer day back with its gentle breeze as the sun set.  They will never see the golden slant of sunlight on their sister’s five year old face.  Blink.  It’s gone.

But they sure made a lot of progress beating that Nintendo GameCube game.  (Oh, and my husband napped the day away.  And the 10-year old was conserving his energy for football practice tonight.)

Ever wonder what happens to the plastic you put into the recycling bin?

Wonder no more.  Recycline produces toothbrushes (and other thoings) made with recycled yogurt cups.  And when you finish with it, the toothbrush itself is recyclable with a postage-paid mailer (available at stores or from Recycline).

If you’d like to try out a toothbrush, leave a comment here.  I’ll pick two people at random and send you your very own toothbrush.  I know.  You can’t believe how lucky you are, being here, reading this.

Check out the Recycline website for more information.  (They make all kinds of stuff, available at Target and there’s a coupon on the website.)

I have been a fan of Scrubbing Bubbles ever since my college roommate introduced me to their products many, many, many years ago.  It seems impossible, but Scrubbing Bubbles has improved their product and has come out with something even easier and more convenient to use.

The Action Scrubber (you can find a coupon on their site) is simple to use.  An easy (and comfortable) handle makes scrubbing quick.  The scrubbing pad attaches to the handle (with some velcro-like magic) and water activates the cleaning solution.  The other day, I noticed the bathroom sink was less than pristine so I grabbed my Action Scrubber and voila!  A clean bathroom sink.  No fuss, no muss.

Cleaning the shower stall was easier, too.  (I hate that job).  I’m a big fan of anything that makes cleaning easier.  And Scrubbing Bubbles Action Scrubber definitely does that.

Okay, so it’s another commercial but don’t you want to hear all about Top Five Tips for a Healthier Summer Travel Itinerary?  The good folks at Clorox sent me a sample of their awesome (New!  Thicker Wipe!  Cleans Better!) Disinfecting Wipes–lavender scent just so I’d tell you about them.  And, of course, I think this product rocks.  Who doesn’t love Clorox products?  (I know, some people are not fond of chemicals, but I like things that kill germs, including the flu virus.  Oh and these are bleach free, yet still work their magic.)

(Really, check out that page.  It has some handy-dandy information so you don’t catch a summer cold which is the worst, isn’t it?)

My daughter and I received review copies of Nana Star (the doll, book and CD) and her friend Moonman. I wrote about it over here.

Bottom line? This is a sweet product, geared for girls ages 3-5. We loved it.

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I have a new Schlage deadbolt.  Read about it here.  I am quite impressed by the quality of this item and I’m sure you’ll want to know all about it.  (Oh, and that’s not all.  I have some other things to review, too, but that will have to wait until tomorrow, even though the deadline is sort of today.  I’m utterly exhausted.)

Tonight, at 10:15 p.m., I telephoned my neighbor down the street to ask her to send my boys home.

A bit later, the doorbell rang.  Her son was at my door asking if I found the boys yet.  “They didn’t come out with me,” he said.

That’s when I realized they must be upstairs, quietly playing the Nintendo Wii with their younger brother.

Way to keep track of the kids.

Tomorrow is the last day of Vacation Bible School at church.  The kids have all gone every day–the teenagers have helped and the younger two have participated and everyone seems to have had a great time.  I know I’ve had a great time having the house to myself for almost three hours each morning.

That’s something I could get used to.  (And next fall my baby girl goes off to kindergarten . . . I know I should feel nostalgic, but at the moment, all I feel is happy anticipation.  I will cry later.)

My daughter has been lobbying for a pet of her own ever since my husband took her window-shopping at a pet store last Sunday while we waited for a table at Red Robin. She declared that she’d really like a mouse. “Mom, I know it’s a big responsibility,” she said, “But I am five-and-a-half! I know how to take care of a pet!”

The truth is, I have always had a fondness for animals. However, I am not willing to take care of a small pet, especially a small pet that might be mauled to death by our three mutant cats in an unguarded moment.

So, we’re trying to convince her that a fish would be Fun with a capital F.

Anybody have advice? I am thinking that a Beta fish might be easy to keep alive? Easier than a goldfish?

That’s just what I need: something more to tend.